This show ended up meaning a lot to me and I'm still unsure how to truly feel about that.
The main character is an artist struggling both with his desire for recognition and the fact that he's a gay man who draws Yaoi. All while navigating his complicated feelings for his old classmate turned idol.
This show does what only Japanese dramas have seemed to ever be able to manage and teeters wonderfully on this line of absolutely fucking absurd and pull-at-your-heartstrings, downright beautiful.
I love every single character, even the outrageous dramatizations of manga artists who draw gay art. Even the cringy over-the-top cold idol. There isn't a character who doesn't bring anything interesting to this story.
I ended up forming a very strong bond with the main character, the things he feels, and the way he expresses those feelings to us the viewer (not so much how he expresses them to his love interest, because ... he does a pretty poor job of that.) made me emotional a few times over.
However, as I mentioned above, he lacks the ability to communicate these things with anyone, and he spends most of the show pushing people away and secluding himself from the world. While that's incredibly relatable, it's also a little frustrating to watch at times. His words can be incredibly harsh out of nowhere and I had found myself even yelling at him once. 😂
This is a show I definitely feel like all artists (or creative types) can appreciate on some level. Especially if you fall somewhere in the alphabet mafia.
9/10
Spoilers Ahead. Do not click anything inside this box if you don't want spoilers. Below are my musings and ramblings about everything that happens in each episode.
Episode One (click to expand)
Less than a minute into the show and I already heavily relate to the main character. An artist who spends his nights creating instead of sleeping. He's zombied his way through the morning routine (same dude) and we're off to what looks like a vacation?
Nope. Convention. Homeboy is a doujin artist and apparently a pretty famous one. Though, he's turning out to be an egocentric asshat. He spends the next scene being incredibly condescending to a fan. Thankfully he's cut off by his business partner? I dunno. Some lady who was running the booth with him. I guess we'll find out her story later?
After the con is over, he is invited to a gathering with other BL creatives, and he declines rudely before the lady he works with drags him away. I am falling endlessly in love with her at this point. Her attitude counterbalances his perfectly.
I really have to give it to Japanese entertainment for grasping the sweet spot of outrageousness. They know how to push the boundary of absurdity without it getting annoying.
Case in point. The title of his most recent novel being titled "Please suck on my enormous, manly tits. ❤" *chefs' kiss* Anyways. She asks him to sign her copy of this masterpiece and then promptly fucks off.
It's not even seconds later that this man nearly fainted from heat stroke. He's been outside for less than 5 minutes but apparently, it's as hot as Satan's asshole in Japan.
Queue some random dude (he was on the TV earlier and we also saw him briefly in line at the con.) catching our main character before he hits the ground. I've just now realized that I've yet to figure out the lead's name yet, but anyway...
Rando is holding his very own copy of suck my manly nip nops or wtf ever. Which startles our ML. The rando pulls off his glasses and flashes a smile in pure anime style.
Apparently, they know each other and rando grabs his hand and takes off running. By the look on the face of the lead, this is not a good thing? Oh. Cool intro time.
Never mind, this is weird. 🤣 Whatever. Dance break, I guess.
Turns out the random dude is a famous idol and I guess we are going to be calling the ML "Mamocchi" now because that's what the idol calls him, he seems to hate it and that makes me happy.
The idol dude spends a solid minute lobbing insults at Mamocchi. Total mood. He ends his rant with a singular compliment about admiring his art skills before hailing a cab.
He offers mama's boy (yeah that's what I'm calling him now) a ride home and he gets pissy and runs away? I'm honestly not even sure what happened there.
Idol is just as confused as I am. It's okay, my guy.
Flashback to high school. We see mama's boy drawing. Idol laughing with other students. Some jealousy? Guess we will have to see where that plot point goes cause we didn't get much from that scene.
Back in real-time and I can't tell if he's throwing a fit or humping his blankets. The scene was over before I could figure it out.
Now they're pregnant and I'm back to being confused...
Food baby it is.
Nothing about this next scene brings much to the story. They're food pregnant and talking about sales. He's happy because people like his work.
In this next scene, we have Mamocchi heading somewhere when he hears a bunch of girls talking about the idol. Who happens to be walking in their direction.
And ... fangirling.
Mama's boy is pissy because he hates that his idol has the fame he desires? I think?
Idol tells the crowd he owes his fame and success to Mamocchi. Who then gets rushed by fans and he freaks out and runs away. I'm sensing a theme here.
Now we're at the idols company (I think? It looks like a house). Anyway, his bandmate is also a douche biscuit. Yelling about how it's unprofessional to speak to your friends when surrounded by fans.
Idol squashes that shit fast by basically agreeing with him completely and smiling like a dumb ass. 🤣 The best way to get out of anything, smile and nod.
Oh no... Tabasco sauce is mad his tantrum didn't work, and he storms off.
This red-headed bandmate is giving me life though. He's funny.
Back with Mama's boy. He's being stalked by a garbage can. You know what they say. You are the company you keep.
Lmao. The can falls over and it's the idol. Who has taken his secret identity more seriously after his scolding apparently?
He tells Mamacita again how he admires his art and the dude gets very mad. Apparently, if you're famous you're not allowed to praise people who aren't famous?
He goes on a rant about how they're in different worlds and being around an idol makes him feel insignificant.
You start this show thinking he's going to be an arrogant dick but instead he's an insecure asshole. 🤷♀️ Two sides of the same coin.
Andddd suddenly he's running away again.
We're back in his house .... where he has a weird shrine of the idol in his closet. I didn't see that coming.
Welp. We're back to humping/thrashing the bed... And that was the end of the episode.
I'm honestly not sure about this one
Nope. Convention. Homeboy is a doujin artist and apparently a pretty famous one. Though, he's turning out to be an egocentric asshat. He spends the next scene being incredibly condescending to a fan. Thankfully he's cut off by his business partner? I dunno. Some lady who was running the booth with him. I guess we'll find out her story later?
After the con is over, he is invited to a gathering with other BL creatives, and he declines rudely before the lady he works with drags him away. I am falling endlessly in love with her at this point. Her attitude counterbalances his perfectly.
I really have to give it to Japanese entertainment for grasping the sweet spot of outrageousness. They know how to push the boundary of absurdity without it getting annoying.
Case in point. The title of his most recent novel being titled "Please suck on my enormous, manly tits. ❤" *chefs' kiss* Anyways. She asks him to sign her copy of this masterpiece and then promptly fucks off.
It's not even seconds later that this man nearly fainted from heat stroke. He's been outside for less than 5 minutes but apparently, it's as hot as Satan's asshole in Japan.
Queue some random dude (he was on the TV earlier and we also saw him briefly in line at the con.) catching our main character before he hits the ground. I've just now realized that I've yet to figure out the lead's name yet, but anyway...
Rando is holding his very own copy of suck my manly nip nops or wtf ever. Which startles our ML. The rando pulls off his glasses and flashes a smile in pure anime style.
Apparently, they know each other and rando grabs his hand and takes off running. By the look on the face of the lead, this is not a good thing? Oh. Cool intro time.
Never mind, this is weird. 🤣 Whatever. Dance break, I guess.
Turns out the random dude is a famous idol and I guess we are going to be calling the ML "Mamocchi" now because that's what the idol calls him, he seems to hate it and that makes me happy.
The idol dude spends a solid minute lobbing insults at Mamocchi. Total mood. He ends his rant with a singular compliment about admiring his art skills before hailing a cab.
He offers mama's boy (yeah that's what I'm calling him now) a ride home and he gets pissy and runs away? I'm honestly not even sure what happened there.
Idol is just as confused as I am. It's okay, my guy.
Flashback to high school. We see mama's boy drawing. Idol laughing with other students. Some jealousy? Guess we will have to see where that plot point goes cause we didn't get much from that scene.
Back in real-time and I can't tell if he's throwing a fit or humping his blankets. The scene was over before I could figure it out.
Now they're pregnant and I'm back to being confused...
Food baby it is.
Nothing about this next scene brings much to the story. They're food pregnant and talking about sales. He's happy because people like his work.
In this next scene, we have Mamocchi heading somewhere when he hears a bunch of girls talking about the idol. Who happens to be walking in their direction.
And ... fangirling.
Mama's boy is pissy because he hates that his idol has the fame he desires? I think?
Idol tells the crowd he owes his fame and success to Mamocchi. Who then gets rushed by fans and he freaks out and runs away. I'm sensing a theme here.
Now we're at the idols company (I think? It looks like a house). Anyway, his bandmate is also a douche biscuit. Yelling about how it's unprofessional to speak to your friends when surrounded by fans.
Idol squashes that shit fast by basically agreeing with him completely and smiling like a dumb ass. 🤣 The best way to get out of anything, smile and nod.
Oh no... Tabasco sauce is mad his tantrum didn't work, and he storms off.
This red-headed bandmate is giving me life though. He's funny.
Back with Mama's boy. He's being stalked by a garbage can. You know what they say. You are the company you keep.
Lmao. The can falls over and it's the idol. Who has taken his secret identity more seriously after his scolding apparently?
He tells Mamacita again how he admires his art and the dude gets very mad. Apparently, if you're famous you're not allowed to praise people who aren't famous?
He goes on a rant about how they're in different worlds and being around an idol makes him feel insignificant.
You start this show thinking he's going to be an arrogant dick but instead he's an insecure asshole. 🤷♀️ Two sides of the same coin.
Andddd suddenly he's running away again.
We're back in his house .... where he has a weird shrine of the idol in his closet. I didn't see that coming.
Welp. We're back to humping/thrashing the bed... And that was the end of the episode.
I'm honestly not sure about this one
Episode Two (click to expand)
I already forgot about the shrine. LMAO. It wouldn't be so weird to idolize a singer but since you know him personally the shrine is a bit much.
The weird thing he's doing in his bed again is not the strangest part of what is happening right now. Why are there 4 different clocks IN his bed? And only one of them seems to be an alarm clock.
Oh. Dance practice. I know the song is not saying this but all I hear is "I don't care that Shinee's back." and it's almost the same tune as the ghostbusters theme song.
Seriously, what died in that guy's butt?
So the paparazzi are going to see the idol and artist together and think it's a love scandal? I should have read the show synopsis before starting.
I'm really not even sure what to say about what's happening in the show at this point.
He's spanking himself because he can't think of anything to draw. Will that work? Is that how I'm supposed to get motivated to work?
He told the posters he was going out. Okayyyyy. I shouldn't judge. I talk to the lock screen on my phone. >___>
Someone better punch whoever this ugly fuck is that's mocking him for being gay because he draws men for a living... I bet that asshole draws exclusively men as well but it's fine cause they're "superheroes" or something.
I am officially irked.
YES! Pigtail girl to the rescue! I dunno her name. It's the girl who works with him and he had food babies with him in the last episode.
He isn't unable to come up with an idea, he's just not happy about the fact that his idea too closely resembles his last issue? I mean, I guess I get that.
She comforts him and lets him know that his fans will enjoy it regardless so he should just enjoy the creative process.
That was the funniest fucking thing I have ever read.
Her-"Unconsciously, that thing in my heart couldn't help but throb out of control."
Him-"That thing in your heart?" Her-"What, you don't know? All female fans of BL, have a penis growing in our hearts."
Buahahhaa. BDE over here.
I'm glad that he has her, it seems like she's the only person in his life.
The idol group has a talk show, and they asked what his buddy respects in another person and he says "someone who chases after their passions without running away." now our artist is drawing his gay boys in public with pride and a smile. I love it so much.
These two idolize each other and it's kind of amusing. Issei only wants to do good at being an idol cause the artist guy told him to be one.
MONTAGE WITH GUITAR RIFFS.
He's back on the "wall" for the next convention. I dunno if I explained that before but it's a prime location or w.e. but he's upset because he's next to the guy he was rude to at the last one and is afraid it will be hell. Probably, but he deserves that he was a jerk.
His next edition is complete. I wonder what manga they're using as his because it looks familiar.
He just got a notification that the band will be on a live broadcast the same day as his convention and he looks disappointed that the idol won't show up, even though he told him they won't see each other again.
But he showed up anyway with a huge thing of flowers and everyone was staring.
Super excited to see how these two end up confessing because they're already both in love with each other but they haven't really seen each other since high school until the first encounter in the last episode.
The weird thing he's doing in his bed again is not the strangest part of what is happening right now. Why are there 4 different clocks IN his bed? And only one of them seems to be an alarm clock.
Oh. Dance practice. I know the song is not saying this but all I hear is "I don't care that Shinee's back." and it's almost the same tune as the ghostbusters theme song.
Seriously, what died in that guy's butt?
So the paparazzi are going to see the idol and artist together and think it's a love scandal? I should have read the show synopsis before starting.
He's spanking himself because he can't think of anything to draw. Will that work? Is that how I'm supposed to get motivated to work?
He told the posters he was going out. Okayyyyy. I shouldn't judge. I talk to the lock screen on my phone. >___>
Someone better punch whoever this ugly fuck is that's mocking him for being gay because he draws men for a living... I bet that asshole draws exclusively men as well but it's fine cause they're "superheroes" or something.
I am officially irked.
YES! Pigtail girl to the rescue! I dunno her name. It's the girl who works with him and he had food babies with him in the last episode.
He isn't unable to come up with an idea, he's just not happy about the fact that his idea too closely resembles his last issue? I mean, I guess I get that.
She comforts him and lets him know that his fans will enjoy it regardless so he should just enjoy the creative process.
That was the funniest fucking thing I have ever read.
Her-"Unconsciously, that thing in my heart couldn't help but throb out of control."
Him-"That thing in your heart?" Her-"What, you don't know? All female fans of BL, have a penis growing in our hearts."
Buahahhaa. BDE over here.
I'm glad that he has her, it seems like she's the only person in his life.
The idol group has a talk show, and they asked what his buddy respects in another person and he says "someone who chases after their passions without running away." now our artist is drawing his gay boys in public with pride and a smile. I love it so much.
These two idolize each other and it's kind of amusing. Issei only wants to do good at being an idol cause the artist guy told him to be one.
MONTAGE WITH GUITAR RIFFS.
He's back on the "wall" for the next convention. I dunno if I explained that before but it's a prime location or w.e. but he's upset because he's next to the guy he was rude to at the last one and is afraid it will be hell. Probably, but he deserves that he was a jerk.
His next edition is complete. I wonder what manga they're using as his because it looks familiar.
He just got a notification that the band will be on a live broadcast the same day as his convention and he looks disappointed that the idol won't show up, even though he told him they won't see each other again.
But he showed up anyway with a huge thing of flowers and everyone was staring.
Super excited to see how these two end up confessing because they're already both in love with each other but they haven't really seen each other since high school until the first encounter in the last episode.
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